Arts for the 21st Century

Matryoshkas

Me, PTSS afflicted small island state, a late developer

with a mendicant Cinderella complex, swollen with fear

and self-loathing, sell myself for cents and nonsense.

 

Desperately showing off newly traded status symbols

of development; stumbling several steps behind my

bigger teens' shadows, sniffing their nauseating sillage;

 

playing dress-up and tripping in fake Jimmy Choo's, when

once I ran barefoot free through virgin forest; glancing

back to check what I dropped, before moving forward.

 

Me, small girl with high hopes, battered

to low self-esteem; hiding in playground

shadows, trying to catch escaping breath.

 

Irregular heartbeat skipping, while pot-

bellied boys with thick ears and bruised

lips catapult insults from small mouths;

 

and clench-kneed girls with marble eyes snigger we have

smart phone doh behind fake-hair-masked fractal-faces;

Donne's purpled blood, beneath my bitten nails.